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I had an affectionless marriage for 6 years. The only attention he showed me came with a sexual string attached. In the 6 months following our separation I became so desperate for affection that I started sleeping around. I don't know whats wrong with me. I'm not a whore... but apparently lately, I am. I just wish I were cold hearted with no need for it.
I've turned into a real slut since my last break up and I can't seem to stop. Meanwhile my ex tells me how much he still loves me and would give me anything if I'd let him. But I never loved him. And I don't like sleeping around. But I also love it.
I've got a beautiful man sleeping in my bed right now, my best friend, who cuddles all night long and does my dishes and vacuums my apartment, but he hasn't given me sex in months because of his depression and anxiety. And I've got a cute and lively younger man lusting openly and e-mailing me songs about unrequited love, but he is married, however unhappily. And I've got a longtime friend and former colleague trying to grab my ass at every opportunity, but he is a juvenille sleazeball and I just won't go there. My point is, I ain't gettin' any, and I ain't gettin' any younger.
I know I did the right thing. He wasn't who he claimed to be, cheated. My mind knows this but my body is being a pain! I can't gag food down, I'm not sleeping. Why when I'm absolutely positive about this break up! I don't miss him so this not eating, sleeping thing can go away now! I thought this love sickness thing only happened when you were upset, heartbroken. I'm neither!
He's a loser, not educated, balding, huge temper, tells me to lose weight, and is all around NOT the dude I should be sleeping with. However, I love him and I hate myself for that. Ever since I was 15 (I'm 23 now) I've had strong feelings for this bastard. I need to think with my head and not my heart but sometimes it sucks.
So my ex bf, who kicked me out with nothing, less than 3 weeks ago, is now sleeping on the couch of the place I am staying. We have a mutual friend, who I am staying with. I will now have to share a bed with this mutual (guy) friend tonight, and my asshole ex will be on the couch. Ya it will only be for a few hours (4am, snowstorm) but still! Come on!!!




