wel i got to say bye to my BF before he left for USMC boot camp. even though it was his last day his mom still couldnt look or talk to me. i dont think things will ever change with her. on the plus side i found a friend who's going to te same cllege as me and her BF is also leaving for army boot camp. dont feel so alone anymore.

i really miss him. i cant wait for school to start. i really could use the distaction. if only his letter would cme already!! i really need him right now...=/

so i thought starting school would make him being at boot camp aot easy. turns out i was wtong. i miss him alot and seeing all these couples walking around campus holding hands is not helping. i havent gotten any of his letters since ive been here. im tired of getting my hopes up everyday and having them crushed when i find an empty mailbox. idk if i can do this....

I got a letter from him on tuesday!!! It was exactly what i needed to keep me going. Turns out he hadn't been able to write cause theyre in phase two of training now. Not much free time. He told me they were geeting 4 hrs of free time for labor day. really looking fwd to the next letter!!

so my bf has like 3 weeks of basic left but i'm not really excited about it. idk why. i still love him and i want to see him. i just dont know if i can go to his graduation and i go to school six hrs away from home so its hard for me to go. idk if ill even be able to see him when he gets home. i just want to see him. =/